Evening of the First Night--- for
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Steve is much more careful in the way he eats than Harrow was, mostly because Viatorus' clothes are very nice and he doesn't want to make a mess of them. The soup is as good as it smelled, and Steve is glad Harrow liked it. Having working taste buds again must be weird for him.
When he's finished, he looks between Harrow and Viatorus carefully. They have a point. It has gotten rather late since all of this started. Between the panic and the running around, Steve hadn't really noticed it. But it was already dark when he'd gone to get the udon.
"What would you prefer I do?" He asks Viatorus quietly. "If it were my body, I'd grab a shower and get to bed, but...is that allowed? Would you rather I didn't?" To Harrow, Steve nods.
"You don't get a choice in the matter with all the soup. You need to give my body at least a wash." He's laughing while he talks though, so it's clear Steve isn't upset.
When he's finished, he looks between Harrow and Viatorus carefully. They have a point. It has gotten rather late since all of this started. Between the panic and the running around, Steve hadn't really noticed it. But it was already dark when he'd gone to get the udon.
"What would you prefer I do?" He asks Viatorus quietly. "If it were my body, I'd grab a shower and get to bed, but...is that allowed? Would you rather I didn't?" To Harrow, Steve nods.
"You don't get a choice in the matter with all the soup. You need to give my body at least a wash." He's laughing while he talks though, so it's clear Steve isn't upset.
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Date: 2016-01-31 05:18 am (UTC)"Steve. You can't keep doing this to yourself. It ain't healthy. Coming back here all the time, pretending things ain't the way they are...You gotta wake up, Stevie. Now you're bringing folks with you? You gotta live. I know it ain't home, but you can make it one. I don't think Harrow here wants to see how these dreams end." Bucky gives Harrow a sympathetic smile.
"You know you gotta go, right Steve?"
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Date: 2016-01-31 01:37 pm (UTC)But he doesn't want to go. Someone's finally taken him to see Earth. He's in New York, for Light's sake! Him! And it's so inviting, and the people are so kind. From where he stands he shakes his head at Steve.
"I wanna stay," he says. "Don't go, Steve. But if you do... I'm staying."
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Date: 2016-01-31 09:15 pm (UTC)There's something off about the voice. All of the light has left it. It's empty. Rough. Tired. The voice of a man who has been through hell. His left arm is entirely gone, replaced by a metal one. His hair is longer and unkempt. His expressions are muted, but he tries to smile at Harrow and Steve. It's a twitch of his lips and nothing more. Weak. Sad.
"...It's not your fault." The Winter Soldier says, letting go of Steve. He gives Harrowheart a long stare. "He needs you. I'm not there. You are."
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Date: 2016-01-31 09:53 pm (UTC)Harrow doesn't break eye contact, but instead follows the advice of the dream ghost. He reaches out for Steve and tries to pull him closer. If they have to run from this man he's not leaving Steve behind.
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Date: 2016-01-31 11:25 pm (UTC)"Bucky, huh?" The Soldier shakes his head, but he's not fighting or lashing out. Just standing there watching the pair of them. "Maybe. Somewhere deep down. I know you. That's enough, right?"
"Till the end of the line, pal." Steve finishes, taking Harrow's hand and turning to walk away. "Til the end of the line..." New York is fading in a swirling mess of emotions and shapes, unstable and unsteady as Steve begins losing all control of his dream. He hadn't been able to fully control it, allowing memories and emotions to shape it more than he'd meant to. But he's waking up. Stirring, and then clawing himself into a sitting position as he looks around the strange room.
He's not home. He's--and there, sleeping next to him is his own body. Steve reaches up to touch at his face, and sighs deeply, drawing his long legs up and hugging them close to himself.
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Date: 2016-02-01 12:24 am (UTC)Viatorus? He's in bed with Viatorus? Before he can process it a deep wave of shame washes over him. He draws the blankets up defensively until they bump his chin, and that's when he notices his hands.
Peach. Warm. Small. Steve. He's Steve. Steve is V. He took a shower. He's in bed now. Time feels like a blur, but... He hadn't fallen asleep. Had he? He'd just been awake! They had their bodies back. Steve found his portal home. They were touring Brooklyn. He saw the river! He saw the bridge! The school, the room, the theatre, the alley... Bucky. And then the man with the metal arm and the wild hair that Steve thought was his friend.
His chest starts to rise and fall too rapidly. He's breathing out of control. He has to get a hold of himself. Just calm down. Count. Breathe. Slowly.
Slowly...
Calm...
Okay.
He stares at Steve-as-Viatorus, eyes wide. His lips part, but it's a while before he can speak. What should he say? What can he say?
Finally he whispers, his voice as small as it can be, "Is everything okay?"
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Date: 2016-02-01 03:02 am (UTC)"Nothing. Go back to sleep, Harrow. Everything's fine." And indeed, compared to Steve's usual dreams, this one was downright pleasant. No one got killed or had to watch someone else get hurt or anything like that. But those dreams are a huge part of Steve's problem. He wants so badly to go home, that he craves being asleep, even when he mostly gets nightmares.
Even Steve Rogers has weaknesses aside from his body.
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Date: 2016-02-01 03:29 am (UTC)Ugh. That doesn't help. He doesn't know what to say, how to express himself. He's not even sure what just happened. And it's not like Steve would know. It wasn't like he was actually there. Steve probably had a strange dream in Viatorus's body and they woke up at the same time, he wagers. He's in Steve's body, so of course he's having his dreams... but would it be right to tell him about it? Taking a shower in someone else's body is one thing, but invading a man's inner thoughts is another.
He kicks off the blankets and rolls out of bed.
"I'm gonna go get some coffee or somethin'," he says groggily. "I'm just gonna stay up all night 'cause I'm havin' some weird, sad dreams and I ain't about that shit. You want anything while I'm out?"
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Date: 2016-02-01 04:53 am (UTC)"You did, too?" Steve rubs at his eyes and then moves to get out of bed and follow Harrow. The poor neglected tea is long since cold and Steve doesn't pay it any mind as he follows Harrow out of the bedroom. "I...I'm sorry. Your first dream since...and it wasn't good? That's unfortunate."
You can't keep doing this to yerself, Stevie.
He shudders and hurries to catch up.
"Let's get Viatorus and see if he's found anything while reading? I think that's what he said he was going to do...." But Viatorus isn't in the apartment. No matter how hard they look he's definitely not there. Or in the trash can why would you even look there. He's not in the pristine and clearly never been used oven, either. What is wrong with you two?
Steve played Pokemon, now he's gotta check all garbage cans
Date: 2016-02-01 01:41 pm (UTC)Where you at? You OK? Steve and I had bad dreams. Come tell us a bedtime story.
Light, that felt like effort. Being tired is ass. He slips his phone back into his pocket and sighs deeply while staring at the ceiling.
"Is it weird to you how rich V is? Like. This is just one of his houses, and that bed and shower were... Whoof. Kinda made me feel small and worthless since we got here. Or... Maybe it's just on my mind 'cause bein' poor was part of my dream. There was this... This tiny little apartment with one hand-me-down bed for two grown men. Everything felt so close. Kinda makes this place feel too big, y'know?"
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Date: 2016-02-01 04:37 pm (UTC)Instantly, he feels a rush of panic and hastily types back:
I'll be there soon. Stay awake until I get there.
He definitely won't be too long with these long, strong legs.
Steve's read Narnia he's not taking any chances with potential magic doors.
Date: 2016-02-01 06:56 pm (UTC)Still, he feels bad for dragging Harrowheart through his dreams unintentionally.
"...I'm glad I was able to show you around, at any rate. It's my home, you know?"
Steve actually came to the Nexus after some bullies dunked him in a trash can
Date: 2016-02-01 07:06 pm (UTC)Somehow all of that is a huge relief. He laughs, and he's grateful for the way it washes away some of the tension and frustration inside. The back of his hand wipes away imagined sweat from his brow and he takes a moment to breathe.
"Shoot, Steve. It's still kinda weird. We were in the same damn dream... And all that stuff with Bucky, and – Ah, shoot... The stuff I said there at the end about..." A heavy sigh. "Shoot."
Time to turn the tables here. He's got to put the burden of shame on someone other than himself.
"Why do you imagine him like a sad jungle man with a metal arm? Not that I got anything against folks with metal arms. My brother's got one. Lost it in a harvest golem accident. But I don't figure you see a lot of folks losin' limbs in farmin' accidents in Brooklyn..."
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Date: 2016-02-01 10:32 pm (UTC)"Nothing happened. I had a dream about my home and accidentally brought Harrowheart I think. We couldn't really figure it out. Calm down, you're freaking me out here. What's going on?"
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Date: 2016-02-01 10:50 pm (UTC)"I forgot to say I texted! V, Steve dreamwalked! It was weird and sad. We were on the bed! We were under the ward. I don't think any demons or nothin' got in."
Oh, wait. Suddenly this isn't so funny. He's gravely serious in an instant. "What... What woulda happened if we weren't under the ward?... Not demons for real, right?..."
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Date: 2016-02-01 11:14 pm (UTC)After a moment to stress, he grabs the teacup, now stone cold, and brings it out. "You were supposed to drink this. You c-can't not drink this." Then he moves to the kitchen, setting the cup down and coming out with a bowl of salt, a couple of bay leaves set in it. After he's set that in his bedroom he comes back out to root out a funny looking bundle of dried up leaves. Suddenly he finally stops all his rushing as he blinks at the thing in his hands. "Oh. I... I can't use magic..." He runs a hand through his hair as he tries to think. "Matches... matches... where would I have put them..."
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Date: 2016-02-02 12:53 am (UTC)He shoots a look to Harrow to make sure the other isn't losing his mind either.
"Okay?"
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Date: 2016-02-02 01:30 am (UTC)"You got a lighter in your shirt pocket, remember? My lighter!"
He takes a few steps back and prepares to watch whatever is about to go on. He's going to learn some Earth magic!
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Date: 2016-02-02 01:59 am (UTC)When he's done that to his own body, he moves to do the same motion around Harrowheart, who is even easier again in Steve's small body.
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Date: 2016-02-02 02:28 am (UTC)When you only know a few people, kind of hard to not dream about them if you're going to dream about anyone. Bucky and his Ma are the most frequent visitors when he sleeps.
"Nothing else. Nothing...outside of my dream, I mean."
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Date: 2016-02-02 02:34 am (UTC)"Nobody there but us chickens," he croaks. Now is not the time to joke, and yet...
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Date: 2016-02-02 02:47 am (UTC)He moves to walk around his bedroom waving the stick in circles at each corner before finding an ornamental dish and snuffing the burning sage and leaving it there. "Alright... Alright. I think it's alright."
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Date: 2016-02-02 04:13 am (UTC)Steve does not understand magic at all.
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Date: 2016-02-02 04:40 am (UTC)"Yeah, man. If you're gonna do voodoo on us, you gotta tell us what you're keepin' out. Is it ghosts? You're in a necromancer's body, you know. You could just tell 'em to scram. Demons? Somethin' else? Are you even allowed to talk about it?"
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