The push makes Steve's jaw tic visibly and he sucks in a deep breath then before finishing up on his rinsing out of the dishes. The thing is, he can't exactly blame Jim and if their situations were reversed he absolutely would be concerned. But this isn't the sort of thing he's talked about to many people before.
"It's...I don't like to eat in front of other people, is all." This time when Steve looks up, it's with a much more reserved expression. He likes Jim and trusts Jim, and it's not like Jim's seen him before to understand why he's so uncomfortable. "I've mentioned it before but I...didn't always used to look like this. Or live in a very prosperous time in American history. There was never enough to go around and I went hungry a lot of days. Coming here and getting a decent meal daily was just..unreal."
But despite the hesitance and discomfort, Steve's putting together a cold turkey and cheese sandwich out of the leftover ingredients for himself.
"It's hard to move past two decades worth of instilled frugality to properly feed myself now. It feels...wasteful. Even though I know it's not. It's especially hard when I'm with people who knew me before."
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Date: 2018-03-07 03:54 am (UTC)"It's...I don't like to eat in front of other people, is all." This time when Steve looks up, it's with a much more reserved expression. He likes Jim and trusts Jim, and it's not like Jim's seen him before to understand why he's so uncomfortable. "I've mentioned it before but I...didn't always used to look like this. Or live in a very prosperous time in American history. There was never enough to go around and I went hungry a lot of days. Coming here and getting a decent meal daily was just..unreal."
But despite the hesitance and discomfort, Steve's putting together a cold turkey and cheese sandwich out of the leftover ingredients for himself.
"It's hard to move past two decades worth of instilled frugality to properly feed myself now. It feels...wasteful. Even though I know it's not. It's especially hard when I'm with people who knew me before."